Thursday, July 02, 2009

Changes...

In the past several years my life has gone through some dramatic changes... I know my friends and family know that Kevin and I separated 3 going on 4 years ago. And, I know many of you wondered why aren't we divorced yet... I have asked myself that many.... many times... The best answer I can come up with is... with Kevin living in California... I didn't have to deal with him, and I wasn't even considering getting into another relationship.... so living in limbo was the easiest.

Then back in January when I had a mighty change of heart and reactivated myself and went back to Church... many things changed inside me... I let my anger towards Kevin go... and once I did that... The damn broke... all the emotions the anger had been blocking came flooding in... the sorrow.. the loneliness... the fears... and I was actually able to look towards my future with an adventurous spirit... and now I am anxious to see what lies before me...

After several conversations with Kevin about divorcing... some went okay...many didn't. We had a hard time with the property settlement. After a few months... I went ahead and hired an attorney and filed for divorce. Kevin was not happy that I did... but that is a whole different conversation!! I know for me I did the right thing... to I was hoping to hear from my attorney this week about a court date..but nothing yet....

Since January I have been working towards being worthy to once again hold a temple recommend... I have been going to Church every week and really enjoying it.. I've had a few issues to work through... I was recently called as the weekly Seminary Teacher... I have NEVER had a calling that I have felt so fully unprepared and unworthy to do... But I am keeping the faith pressing forward... and I will do my best... I need the blessings and I know I will get tons more out of this calling than my students... Back to my temple recommend... At the end of May... the Stake Presidency gave me the okay!! So I had my recommend interviews and I have my temple recommend... and on July 22 I will be going to the the Nauvoo Temple!! Yipee!! I can't wait!!

Meg

2 comments:

Unknown said...

You are AWESOME Meg! I am sooo proud of you, hugz to ya!

Shar said...

way to go, Meg! I'm so happy that you are able to go to the temple again. There is such much peace and love to be felt there. I'm glad I read your post today. It reminded me that I need to go as often as I can. I need the spirit that resides there to strengthen me.

I love you and I'm so glad you're feeling loved from Heavenly Father!