Thursday, October 13, 2011

Changes begin from within oneself....


I started working full-time at a local newspaper/printing company 3 weeks ago. I have to admit I am very use to being the happy cheery person that most people warm up to quickly. That is how it was the first week or so at work... then I began to feel uncomfortable. I was feeling judged harshly for my typos... Most of my family knows I am the typo queen. But at this paper it's not just my regular typos that were under the microscope... it was the paper's own typing standards. For example in an auction the first letter of every item is capitalized but NOT the descriptive words... the first letter of all the farm machinery... but NOT the words that describe it's features. Which sound very easy until you get Farmers who type back asswards, and there are 20 million different types of farm equipment.. and I was raised in SAN DIEGO, CALIFORNIA... and I could give a rats ass about what is the name and what is a description... of a flipping stupid tractor... Did you know there are farm machines that are have or are disks and others that use discs... do you know the difference... well I sure don't... Well the proof readers are making my life hell and making me feel like crap... I am doubting my abilities to design my own name... Oh and this one proof reader takes JOY in taking ALL my work to my supervisor so SHE can tell me what a dunce I am... Yesterday was horrible... I wanted to just melt into my chair... BUT I have a secret weapon... when I am feeling down and pretty worthless... I pull out my trusty iPhone and ear buds... and I listen to a conference talk... and EVERY TIME by the end of the talk I am feeling much better about life and myself... I have 2 wonderful co-workers who I can vent to and they always make me feel better... They see what is going on too... so I am not being paranoid... The hardest part for me is that I have a real hard time with someone NOT liking me. So tonight I shall pray for my enemy at work... and NO I won't pray something bad will happen... I will pray that she her heart will soften towards me... and she will be more patient with me... and I will pray that I will have the discernment to know one tractor from another... ugh... but I think for that I will be praying for a miracle... if things don't get better I plan to have a fast over the whole issue... because I also am not use to hating my job... even when it's not the most pleasant place to be I usually can find something I enjoy about it... So we shall see...
But in the mean time... I saw this adorable picture of my great-nephew, Dean and I could not help but scrapbook it... I have been working on making elaborate clusters... with junk all over them...but this picture called for simplicity... so after dragging and deleting about a million items... I finally caught on... and kept is very simple... enjoy!!