Calling!!

Last month I was asked if I would like to be the 2009-2010 Seminary teacher for my Branch. I accepted the assignment... But I was never called... I went to the Stake Seminary Training meeting. I started to attend the special classes that were taught by our area CES teacher... and I had yet to be officially called... When I asked out Branch President about it... he told me that he had been told by the Stake Presidency for me to go ahead and attend all the classes... that when the Stake comes back up to our Branch it will all be taken care of...

So yesterday... and hour before Church I get a call from out High Council man asking me to please come to Church a few minutes early... which of course I said yes... and had no idea how I was going to make it on time ...let a lone early... but I was able to get Angie (my client) up and going and some how... I made it to Church 10 min before starting... To be honest... I had been prompted to get up and get going early.. and I rolled over and ignored it and went back to sleep... dang I hate it when I ignore promptings... I always regret it...

So I meet with the Bro. Fowels our High Councilman... and he officially calls me to the calling I have already accepted... verbally and in action.. but I am relieved that the time I have invested was well spent... I am then sustained in Sacrament... After Sacrament I was set apart.

I have been set apart for every calling I have ever received... I am a very picky about that! I always feel I want all the help and blessing I can get from a calling... with feeling so inadequate for being a Seminary teacher... I made sure I was going to get set apart!! So after Sacrament Bro. Fowels set me apart... and like I said I have been set apart for EVERY calling I've had... and I have to say that the blessing I received from Bro Fowels was the most poignant blessing I have every received... he asked that I have assistance in EVERY area that I feel so lacking... as Bro Fowles gave me the blessing ... I just sat there and weeped.. then on to crying... and I felt so loved and I felt so strongly that Heavenly Father really knows me... the good and the bad!!

So... now is the count down to the first class... the studying begins... and the many many hours of prayer!!

Changes...

In the past several years my life has gone through some dramatic changes... I know my friends and family know that Kevin and I separated 3 going on 4 years ago. And, I know many of you wondered why aren't we divorced yet... I have asked myself that many.... many times... The best answer I can come up with is... with Kevin living in California... I didn't have to deal with him, and I wasn't even considering getting into another relationship.... so living in limbo was the easiest.

Then back in January when I had a mighty change of heart and reactivated myself and went back to Church... many things changed inside me... I let my anger towards Kevin go... and once I did that... The damn broke... all the emotions the anger had been blocking came flooding in... the sorrow.. the loneliness... the fears... and I was actually able to look towards my future with an adventurous spirit... and now I am anxious to see what lies before me...

After several conversations with Kevin about divorcing... some went okay...many didn't. We had a hard time with the property settlement. After a few months... I went ahead and hired an attorney and filed for divorce. Kevin was not happy that I did... but that is a whole different conversation!! I know for me I did the right thing... to I was hoping to hear from my attorney this week about a court date..but nothing yet....

Since January I have been working towards being worthy to once again hold a temple recommend... I have been going to Church every week and really enjoying it.. I've had a few issues to work through... I was recently called as the weekly Seminary Teacher... I have NEVER had a calling that I have felt so fully unprepared and unworthy to do... But I am keeping the faith pressing forward... and I will do my best... I need the blessings and I know I will get tons more out of this calling than my students... Back to my temple recommend... At the end of May... the Stake Presidency gave me the okay!! So I had my recommend interviews and I have my temple recommend... and on July 22 I will be going to the the Nauvoo Temple!! Yipee!! I can't wait!!

Meg