I met a new friend the other day... and for only having a couple of conversations with them... and with what I call their quiet widsom... they have helped me to open my eyes and heart to a whole new perspective... I asked them what their favorite parable was and their response was the 10 Virgins... because they had just read it and it was fresh in their minds... my reply was I didn't like that one because I am so disorganized I will never be ready for my prince when he comes... their response was...something like... it's all in my choices....
Their reply wasn't telling me what I need to do or not to do.... it was simply "it was all in my choices". what a profounding thought... Oh I didn't not like the sound of that one... the choice was mine... that thought has rolled around in my head for days...
When I went to Church on Sunday... I went with a whole new attitude. Yes... my poor lamp has been neglected... it has taken a few tumbles and it has a few chips in it... and my oil is way low ... way too low... but with some time(faith), some polish(prayer) and some work(obedience)... my lamp will be worthy to hold all the oil I put in it... I feel so GOOD!
Now... this morning I wake up and feeling low... I am at work again.... I love my work... but I love my own bed better... I am feeling defeated... I think about my New Years Resolution for the past 2 years... I want control back of my life... I feel like it is going faster and faster and I am losing control and there is going to be a terrible crash... we me hurt!! Well this morning I had a "Well Duh" moment... I don't need to take control of my life... I need to turn my life over to the Lord! I know how simple that sounds... but it was such a difficult concept to see when I was in my slump... I know those who really know me and love me know exactly what I am talking about... thank you so much for all your prayers and good thoughts that you sent my way!! I sure can feel them now.... and I'm Back!
And to my new friend... good luck to you in all that you do...and may you always pass on your quiet wisdom to those you meet.
Oh! and the picture collage are pictures I took last year of the St. Louis Temple... when I drove Gene and Nila to see the specialist for Gene!! I am so glad Ittok the time to get out in the horrid heat and take them... they mean so much more to me now that they did when I took them... I kept wondering why I was taking them... They sure give me such joy and hope now...
Meg... feeling more hopeful than I have in a long time.
3 comments:
I loved this post. Truly loved it. You made me cry. I really needed to hear this for me too. The choice really is ours to make. Welcome home!!
Love love love you lots!
Thanks for this inspirational post Meg. I'm so glad for you that you are on this journey. It really made me think about my own choices lately and I realize that I have lots of work to do myself. Thanks for sharing. This is awesome news! Love, Karen
I haven't been blogging...or reading blogs...all month. I've felt overwhelmed, overworked, underfed (spiritually), and overall not myself. I haven't gone through the same things as you, but I think maybe I've felt a bit the same. Thanks for reminding me that how I feel is all in my choices. I'm trying to start making choices that will help me be closer to the Lord. And it's making a difference.
I love you and I pray for you.
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